Today we’re going to talk about something a little bit different, mental health. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was in college. This was back in 2013. Since then, I’ve been in and out of different doctor’s offices. So, I haven’t gotten the proper care and treatment I should be getting. This is also something I’ve talked about openly twice, well three times. Once was to my husband, second was in a group chat specifically geared towards mental health, and the third is now.
It’s been so long since I’ve genuinely talked to a psychiatrist or even a regular doctor about my mental health concerns. So, it’s possible that I could have been misdiagnosed all those years ago. However, I’m operating under the assumption that it was a correct diagnosis.
The reason I wanted to talk about this today is because it’s important. It’s important to seek help when you need it. I also feel myself slipping into a depression. This is when I tend to be more serious about seeking help for myself.
Another reason I want to be so open about this is because of my daughter. I didn’t have an open relationship with my parents. I’m not sure why, but I never really felt like I could go to them with things. I don’t feel like I can open up to anyone really. I get physically uncomfortable when I share things really personal to me to anyone.
My husband is also one of those people who thinks that if someone wants to be happy, then they should choose to be happy instead of sad. Despite him thinking this, when I told him I was bipolar, he didn’t tell me to just be happy. Since then he’s also been more understanding of my moods. So, we’re working on his attitudes with mental health.
My point here is, I don’t want my daughter to grow up and live feeling she can’t open up about things. So, I’m starting to try and be open. Where else is she supposed to learn if my husband and I don’t model the behavior?
If you have any concerns regarding your mental health, please find someone to help you. I know (in America at least), that this can be very hard. Some people don’t have health insurance or your health insurance doesn’t cover therapy (or it’s just too expensive). If this is the case for you, please reach out to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA). Their national hotline is 1-800-662-HELP (4357).
You’re not alone. There are people feeling similarly to you.
There are also people who can help.
Let me know what you think. I’m sorry if this post seemed a bit scattered. My thought process was quite literally “mental health, share”. So, thank you for sticking through this.
Thank you for stopping by and I will see you next time.
SAMHSA. “National Helpline”. http://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline