I cannot believe it’s the end of the year. I know, I know. We say it every year. Is it really almost the new year if we don’t talk about how we don’t believe it? Well, probably.
Overall, 2019 was a pretty standard year. I had plenty of bad moments, but I also had plenty of great moments. The major difference for this year is that I’m feeling way more motivated to make this new year special.
It’s the end of the year and also the end of the decade. Maybe that’s why I feel so motivated to start things on a good note and keep improving throughout the year. Since I’ve been feeling so serious, I’ve put a lot of thought and effort into my resolutions. Before I did that, I did something I didn’t normally do.
I “reviewed” my year. More specifically, I was looking for things that I felt held me back this year. Behaviors, feelings, people, etc. Now that I’m done doing that I now know what I need to leave behind to progress. So, without further ado, these are the things I’m leaving in 2019.
I’m tired of wasting my time. I wasted a lot of time in 2019. Yes, I was focused on P, but I feel like I could have done more. More for her, my family, myself.
I felt like I was owed that. The ability to do absolutely nothing (well, reading or playing video games). I ended up doing too much nothing though. It stopped being healthy and made me bored and a little stressed.
I’m also tired of wasting things. Food and just things overall. I’m hoping to take more steps in the new year to be better for the environment.
Waste will not be moving on into 2020 with me.
Seeing complete joy and wonder in my daughter’s eyes has made me realize that I don’t need any negativity hanging around me. It’s draining.
I’m not harboring any bad feelings towards anyone. Any wrong doings are in the past and that’s where they’ll stay. My relationship with those people will also remain in the past.
I also had a habit of having a negative mindset on things. “It won’t be fun” or “they won’t enjoy” type of negativity. That attitude stays in 2019.
Not finishing things or not giving my all on things has been terrible. It’s frustrating seeing half finished projects laying around and taking up space. It might be more frustrating to see something completed, but not done so well.
My 2019 was filled with too many half attempts. It’s time to raise my standards and make sure the things that I do meet those standards.
I’m tired of doubting. I’ve had doubts about relationships, writing, reading, eating. What should I read/eat? There’s no way I can post that, it’s a terrible idea and I hate how it sounds. Is this relationship working?
Now, don’t get me wrong, a little doubt is good. It can push you to do better and can make you think twice about things. I just want to go into 2020 with a little more confidence.
I don’t want 2020 to be boring and plain. 2019 was pretty standard. I felt really middle of the road.
I don’t want to feel like I’m in the middle of the road. I want to be extraordinary. This is a new feeling for me. I’ve always been happy with who and how I am. Now I need just a little bit more. I want to be a light in people’s lives. I’d like to be inspiring. I always get an image of Dwayne Johnson when I think about how I want to be. He seems like he doesn’t do “plain”.
So, there you have it. Those are some of the behaviors that I’m leaving in 2019 so that my 2020 can be even better. What are a few of the things that you’re going to be leaving behind? Let me know in the comment section below.
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